Is the sky about to fall down?

The unexamined life is no life at all. Socrates

You are not a troubled guest on this earth.  David Whyte from What to remember on waking

What am I afraid of?

The Asterix character Vitalstatistix goes around with a shield to combat his one fear, that the sky would fall on his head tomorrow. How much has prayer for me been about desiring protection and projecting a talisman? How much does this reflect the discomfort we radiate in living in God’s world?

Self-preservation

The movement towards letting life come to me, to trusting life, to believing in a Benevolence seems to signal another change in tack. I don’t think my hand is on the tiller. Openness as opposed to being shielded or shielding myself, honesty and humility and the place for the critical, these seem more important to me now. Where I am within touching distance of these is for another day!

But I do believe that prayer is not principally about volume or fervency, nor is it simply a numbers game (the more the better). Prayer has to go through the human brain, the human heart, the human body and in so doing is not external to us. It also has an element of cloudiness, of mystery and of allowing what I do not understand.  There will be tussles, for control? And I can’t afford to be deluded about my cunning and subversive plans for self-preservation.